Thursday, February 26, 2009


Still not feeling very well and dealing with some grumpy kiddos and a "lovely" winter weather advisory here, but I am going to turn my comments back on. Praying that I find God's leading in this and that I will be stronger in Him for it!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

A vent....don't feel you have to read....alot of negativity....

I've been hesitant to write too much here lately. I honestly don't know what is going on, if it's just me or what, but I have been in such a funk lately. Every time I start to feel a little better I feel like something comes flying in and knocks me back down again.

In no way do I want to come on here and be all negative and bring every one else down or make it seem like I am fishing for compliments or being a drama queen or anything so I have just stayed pretty quiet....maybe that's the wrong thing to do though too, maybe I do just need to sit down and write it all out, vent away and then maybe I'll feel better. I don't know.

Where do I even start....there's the stress of K's job. He missed the last round of lay offs by eleven months...they laid off everyone who had been working there for less than 12 years and he had been there for 12 years and 11 months. We were so thankful that he decided to graduate early and go right to work! They had another meeting after that saying that there was a pay freezed for this year, no bonuses, fine he still has a job, not a big deal. Well, yesterday he comes home and says that they had another meeting and they are only working four day weeks now, Fridays off. It's getting scary, how long until they decide they are going to shut down two daycare families can not support us, no way we could make the bills.

Then there have been the health issues...nothing major but just enough to get a person down and really feeling tough. K or the kids shared whatever stomach bug had been going around and my stomach was just beginning to feel better when I started with another issue....and my back has still been bothering me with my hip out. Add to that me falling down the icy front steps on my bottom yesterday morning and it's been so much "fun". Today is the best I have felt for a while now, but I still have a nagging soreness in my back, which I am guessing is from the fall since I really didn't lift anything yesterday.

And maybe it's all that getting me down, but I feel that I have done something to offend my best friend. He (yes, my best friend is a there is nothing else going on....sorry just another conversation I am tired of having to have and explain things....and my mood.....) anyway, he has been rather quiet and not talking much to me at all, almost feel like I am being avoided. I know that he has some issues going on with family at home too, but just feels "off" does that make any sense? I ABSOLUTELY HATE offending and/or disappointing anyone, but ESPECIALLY him! He is older than I am and I look up to him in many more ways than just a best friend. I look to him as an example, he is honestly more like the big brother I never had and is such a strong Christian that he makes me want to have that kind of walk with the Lord and that kind of relationship. He is also a very talented musician and as I struggle through piano lessons and trying to sing in church, again, he is my example to follow and lately I don't feel like I have been doing a very good job in either one of these areas. I honestly just feel like a failure. It hurts so bad to think that I have done something to hurt anyone, but especially him, and I have no idea what or how to fix it! I just feel stuck!

I am struggling in my Awana group. My problem child from two years ago is in my group again and I feel that I have to take more time to discuss issues/discipline/deal with her and I am so not enjoying my time with the kids this year. Last week was a little better because the group that I share with another leader was so small and I got to go and float to two other groups and take pictures in the Sparks game time.

I haven't even felt much like editing my pictures or really taking any pictures. I just feel pretty down right now. I don't know what to do, I'm giving it to God and hoping that there is something to learn from all of this. I don't see it right now, but I am sure that God has a plan.

Sorry if you have wasted time reading all of this blahness! Honestly, if I can figure out how I am going to disable comments for this post too, I didn't write it so I could get people to feel sorry for me, I am hoping that just getting it all out will make it a little easier to deal with....

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Busy and playing catch up

I am finally getting things caught up around the house. I was just feeling that I was getting caught up before and then I got flooded...K was home sick with food poisoning/flu we haven't really figured out what he had, basketball games, daycare kids sick, me not feeling well, and just trying to sort out some things in my head.
I am probably about halfway through with the laundry....but I ran out of laundry detergent and it works out well, because I wouldn't get much done with Tater here anyway. I go the three or four baskets of clean laundry that were sitting in the second bedroom put away yesterday. I got all of my cards made for last week and this week. I even went through some things on my desk and threw out a few things and hung the new Christmas card pictures that we got up on the side of the bookshelf where I keep them. Finally!
Sunday I even got another Zone Therapy treatmet! I loooove my Zone Therapy treatments! With the pain and problems I have in my right foot, and with the associated issues in my right hip it helps ALOT! It helps with so many other things, my sinuses, cramps, pressure in my ears, my mood in general....and it is so relaxing! I sleep like a rock for at least three nights after a treatment! It has also helped that I finally got my favorite comforter back on the bed! With K being sick I had pulled all the bedding off to wash and Lysoled the mattress and everything just to be safe. I had another comforter on the bed that I don't like as much, it's not as warm and it's sort of falling apart so besides not just being comfortable I was cold.
I am hoping to do some more catching up on my Bible reading this afternoon/evening. I have kept up with the Daily Bread Devotional reading, but the reading through the Bible in a year I am behind in. The kiddos are napping now and I have done my devotional reading for the day so maybe after prayer meeting I can get smore more reading done tonight.
I am still reading all of your blogs even though I haven't been commenting much. I plan to change that now though, since I have finally gotten to a better place with my thoughts and my work I will be back to annoying you all again very soon!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

A little catch up

The days are flying by so quickly! Every day I open a window and get ready to write a blog post and every day something happens and I never get anything written!
Things are busy, as normal, around here. Hubby's birthday is today and we are going to another basketball game!
We had a good Valentine's Day, Friday night we went to a basketball game in a neighboring town about twenty minutes away and then to Wal Mart afterwards. We finally got home around one am! Saturday I got my typing for church done and Sunday School and picked up around the house and went to a basketball game in the afternoon. The game was over around three and we decided to stop in and visit my Grandma who lives in that area. We went out for supper with her and went over to my cousin's house with her for a while because she was going to babysit his kids. We had alot of fun!
The kids have just left now and we are getting ready to head out to yet another basketball game!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

I'm tired!

I am so glad that the weekend and the beginning of this week are over!! It started out well, K went to his Elders' and Deacons' Meeting and I went with C to some non conference basketball games in Wisconsin. K wasn't feeling so well Friday night, but Saturday morning was doing ok. We found out that PM wasn't feeling so well late Friday night either....we are thinking that they had a mild case of food poisonig. They both were feeling better by the middle of the day but by Sunday night K wasn't feeling well again. I think he overdid with the eating on Sunday since he was feeling better. He stayed home Monday and Tuesday from work.
Monday T came here rather than going to school too, he had croup and they were giving him nebulizer treatments and his cough was just so barky yet that his parents sent him here instead. So here I was running upstairs to check on K, taking care of T, and Tater was clingy and needed some extra attention so by the end of the day I was exhausted!
Tuesday I woke up not feelin very well, but I think it was more due to the fact that I had been taking alot of Motrin due to my back pain and pain from my "lovely" monthly cramps. I went to bed early and this morning I have been feeling better. I am still hoping to get a nap before Awana tonight!
We didn't go to the basketball game last night, J was home sick and since I had the boys that was the only game that we would be able to make it to. We are planning to go to the next game on Friday. It is in a town nearby and should be a good game!
Well, laundry is calling again and I need to get these little monkeys to settle in for nap. Laters all!

Monday, February 02, 2009

Busy weekend, Super Bowl, and scarves!

The weekend went by so quickly! Friday we headed out to a basketball game about an hour and fifteen minutes away. The other team's fans wore t shirts with Beat ****** on them. We were a bit nervous as they did beat JV, but Varsity won and they remain unbeaten!! It was a pretty exciting game! At the end of the game, some of the students were just throwing away their tshirts and others were selling their tshirts to some of our fans. I couldn't figure out why our fans would want them, but I later found out that they are going to take them to the local screen printing shop and have them put Can't on the top so they will say Can't Beat *****!
Saturday we went and watched C play with the freshman and then we went out for lunch to use a gift certificate that I got from Miss A, I man, and Little C's family for Christmas. I went for something a little different and tried a taco omlette. It was ok, the meat was pretty plain, not really "taco like". If it would have tasted more like taco meat it would have been better! Then we went shopping for B's birthday gift. I had a good idea about what I wanted to get her, I just needed the time to go and get it! I found her a picture frame that said A friend loveth at all times and printed off a couple of pictures of us in it, a magnet that said something about the laughter remaining after the ice cream is gone, and a cow wind chime. We have a story behind the cow thing.
Sunday we met at PM and C's house with one other family to watch the Super Bowl. We had a great time together! None of us were really cheering for either team, we just watched and admired all the good plays and enjoyed each others' company with alot of laughter! There was even a few golf balls hit with the putting green that PM had gotten for Christmas.
I worked just a little on the scarf this weekend. I ended up having trouble with the blue on Saturday nigh! This scarf has more ends to tuck in!! Ah well, it's almost done! And then I can start on C's and then my next project!