Monday, January 11, 2010

January 11I have sort of informally titled this one look into my eyes....I am still doing alot of thinking...really wishing that I could just get someone to understand how I'm feeling but I really can't find the words to describe it myself. Pride;humbled;hurting;broken;sad;happy;confused; I'm just trying to sort out who I am. K and I joke that I am going through my "second childhood" now since when I was actually a child I was having to be more responsible/grown up since my Mom was sick. So I guess I am sorting out things that most people honestly would have sorted out by now...still trying to figure out where I really fit in....I don't really feel like I do belong right now, wishing I could just "fit in". I'm just confused. My emotions come in waves and right now I'm at a low. I know it will get better, it just feels kind of good to write it out....
I brightened the eye just a bit, it was darker than I liked with the way I got the picture...but didn't change the color at all...then I went and decolorized all of the picture except for the colored part of my eye.
We went to a Jr High basketball game this afternoon, and we have two more Varsity games this week and Awana. The work week is pretty slow, just got a phone call that I don't have the boys tomorrow, maybe I'll actually catch up on the things I was supposed to catch up on today and didn't get done!

1 comment:

Brandi said...

Wow, Heidi! When I saw the picture, I thought it was one of those clip art things that people post when they don't have a picture. You took that and it's your eye?!!! It's really amazing! Sorry your having a rough time right now. I'll say a prayer for you. :)